[ Name ] Crystal
[ Nicknames ] Crissy, crys, ghost, mei.
[ Screen name ] Hikari/Hiki
[ Birthday ] (I'm not putting it for reasons XD)
[ Astrological sign ] Sag
[ Location ] Singapore
[ Marital Status ] Not married xD
[ Eye color ] Dark brown/black
[ Height ] 5'1
[ Shoe size ] 4 and a half
[ Siblings ] Older sister
[ Nieces/Nephews ] Eh yeah I have... around 3.
[ Kids of your own] Oh, hell no. Not in a long time.
[ Grandkids ] No...
[ Pets ] Had a hamster and a tortiseee x)
[ Education ] Poly for now >3
[ Rent, lease, or own your home ] Don't own anything D:
[ Have any credit cards ] NIL DAMN IT
[ What do you drive ] Drive?
Favorites
[ Color ] Blue, purple, black, silver
[ Numbers ] 7 and 8
[ Animal ] Eh... horse? dog? cat?
[ Vehicle ] Never thought about it..
[ Flower ] Don't have one..
[ Scent ] ...Uh.... Shit. Don't have that either.
[ Shape ] heart? cross? xDDDDDD
[ Drinks ] sweet drinks? XD
[ Soda ] COKE :3
[ Food ] Rice.. meat... jap... too many ><;
Do you?
[ Color your hair? ] No...
[ Twirl your hair? ] Hell no, well not really.. D<
[ Have tattoos ] Nopes
[ Cheat on tests/homework ] Cheat on homework? Tests no... homework yes?
[ Drink/Smoke ] Hell no -.-
[ Like roller coasters ] Yep >D
[ Wish you could live somewhere else ] Duh.
[ Like cleaning ] Seriously... who LIKES it?
[Write in cursive or print ] I prefer printing... my handwriting isn't exactly NICE xD
[ Swear a lot ] Well yeah... but depends on what swear words.
[Know how to drive ] Nopes~
[ Diet ] Not really...
[ Own a cell phone ] Yeps~
[ Ever get off the damn computer ] Hardly... NEVER! (Well not really anyway)
Have you ever
[ Gotten a speeding ticket ] Don't drive xD
[ Been in a wreck ] Dunno, don't think so
[ Been arrested ] Nop
[ Stolen anything ] No... I think
[ Held a gun ] Ah?
[ Drank ] Drank what? ><; No, no i haven't
[Considered a life of crime ] Never, not yet at least..
[ Been in love ] Nop
[ Used someone ] Nop
[ Been used ] No? I dunno
[ Been cheated on ] No
Current
[ Current mood ] Moody
[ Current taste ] Chocolate to get rid of moodiness...
[ Current annoyance ] Project work
[ Current smell ] Just the scent of home *sighs* xD
[ Current thing I ought to be doing ] Writing and doing project...
[ Current windows open ] ff.net XDDDDDD
[ Current desktop picture ] Anime girrrrl...
[ Current book ] No... I'm only in fanfic word darlings...
[ Current hate ] ..... *censored*
[ Current job ] Living
[ Last book you read ] Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
[ Last movie you saw ] Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix? Wow that WAS long ago...
[ Last thing you had to drink ] Soup?
[ Last thing you ate ] Prawn noodles
[ Last person you talked to on the phone ] Best friend
Do you
[ Do drugs ] Nope..
[ Have a dream that keeps coming back ] Yes, plenty...
[ Believe there is life on other planets ] Not really... Haven't thought about it
[ Remember your first love ] Ahhh... In Kindergarten? xD
[ Still love him/her ] You're kidding...
[ Read the newspaper ] Hardly.
[ Believe in miracles ] Why not? :33333
[ Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever ] Yep
[ Consider yourself tolerant of others ] It depends... sometimes i'm super tolerant, at times i can totally blast out at you
[ Consider love a mistake ] Not at the moment.
[ Have a favorite candy ] I kind of liked them all...
[ Believe in astrology ] Used to sort of believe in it for fun..
[ Believe in magic ] No. Period.
[ Believe in God ] Mm hmm
[ Wear hats ] No.. Not really anyway
[ Hate yourself ] Range from sort of to an outright yes.
[ Have an obsession ] Yes
[ Have a secret crush ] No-one
[ Do they know yet ] No crush means no one?? XD
[ Collect anything ] Crystals
[ Have a best friend ] Serene darling! XD
[ Close friends ] Yeps~ <333333
[ Like your handwriting ] Like chicken scratch
[ Care about looks ] Not all the time...
Love life
[ Single or attached ] Single
[ Do you believe in love at first sight ] I dunno.
[ Do you believe in "the one" ] Not really. Not until I found 'the one'. xDDDD
Gaaah...
Birthday PARTY!
Okay~! Yesterday was DOMMY BABY(<--- XD) birthday! I celebrated my baby cousins's birthday too! Though not really a baby anymore now are you jon? :3 More like a toddler! Another year older~ How old are you anyway -.- <- is stupid. Now the little one sitting on me is Urchin number 1!
I look like an old ahma there... damn! XD
The little urchin couldn't see the television so... (What am i?! Your convenient chair?!)
O.M.G look behind! It's the duckie! (I love that duck, it sings :3 Should see the video i took XD)
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Gaaaaah! Here's little MARKIEEEEEEEEE!<- birthday boy's little brother *faints* This is urchin number 4 since he's the latest 'edition' to the family XD
Why so cute huh?! WHY!?!?!?!
Mwahaha, they weren't the only monsters there...
Little Lucussssss! (Below) He is urchin number 3!!
Lucus was complaining that his bowl was very small... XD
Ah, there is big boy Joshua, Lucus's big brother~ and little Marcus!!!! All the naughty urchins in the world combine! :333333 Ah, anyway, Joshua is urchin number 2! He and Jonathan are the older brothers to Lucus and Marcus respectively. :3
Okay enough about them... XDDDDDDDDD
HARRY POTTER SEVEN IS OUT. I hope my sister finishes the book by tonight so i can start! I can hardly WAAAAAAAIT!
Oh, back to the birthday party.... I found out my cousin who is getting married (biau kee! I gave him that name bwahaha) he actually asked me and my cousins to decorate the bangalow he's booking for the wedding! Wah! Everything CLASH near my exam perioddddd... But heck la, right? XD (Kufufufu)
Right, going back to my lala land. :3
A conversation in heaven about us One day
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Religious Content.A conversation in heaven about us One day
Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan went to visit Jesus in the Garden of Eden, and Satan came all happy and boasting. (Lk 4: 1-12; Job 1: 6-12)
"Yes, Lord, now I have everybody captive, well nearly everybody down there. I set put traps, I used the baits of temptation, I know well what each one of them can't resist. I nearly caught them all!" (I Pet 5: 8-9; Eph 6: 10-17)
"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked. and He was praying to God the Father. Satan answered "Oh, I am going to have some fun with them!"I'll make them divorce after they have married so the foundation of humanity will never be able to be established "the family" (Mt 19: 4-6; Mal 2: 16) I will make them hate each other and abuse each other, make them fall into alcohol and drugs without control. (Rom 13: 12-14) I will teach them to make weapons and bombs, so they kill each other "I am really going to have fun!"
"And when you are tired of playing with them, what will you do?"Jesus asked. And continued praying"Oh, I will kill them all and their souls will be mine forever"ìLord by all respect, it¥s their decisionî (I Jn 3: 8-10)
"How much do you want for all of them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, you can't want these people. They aren't anything good. Why do you want them if they neither follow you nor love you? Many hate you! I have seen many of them spitting on you, cursing you and even denying you.""What's more, they love me a lot" (Mt 24: 10-13) "You don't want these people!"
"How much?" Jesus asked again Satan looked at him with a nasty face "All your tears and all your blood, all the pain of the entire world, all together" (Is 53: 4-10; I Pet 2: 24)
Jesus said..."DONE" and He paid the price" (II Cor 5: 21)
How terrible it is that people don't seek for God, and then ask themselves why the world is going to hell! How terrible that we seek the newspaper everyday to read tragedies and we never seek the Bible How insensible it is how everybody wants to go to heaven, thinking they can get there without having to believe, without loving God above all things, or doing what the Bible says...the Laws of God. Is it not terrible how some people can say "I believe in God"but still follow Satan (Who as matter of fact, does fear God) (II Tim 4: 3-4; II Jn 1: 7-11)
Don't you think it's pathetic how they send each other thousands of jokes by email, so they spread like plagues. But when it's about the Lord's messages, we think about it twice before we share them; and we leave the mailboxes of our friends without this message Don't you think it is outrageous that the obscene, vulgar and crude is allowed freely to pass through the internet that even many people would desire to get into the screen. But it is forbidden to speak publicly about Jesus in the schools, places of work self-helping groups, etc... (Acts 4: 19-20)
Even after knowing what He did for us. Because the Romans didn't kill Him. It was our sin. that we may be forgiven and know Him in His glory with the Father. Doesn¥t it seem incredible to you how somebody can be alight on Sunday in the Church, worshipping and thanking the Lord for His mercy, for one more day to live etc. But during the rest of the week he is an invisible Christian! (II Tim 3: 1-5; Rom 10: 9-13)
Does this seem just to you? Don't let Satan stop you sending this Mail to all your contacts on the Web, It doesn't matter if he tells you that many don't believe this Don't let him get through with his plans! Stop worrying what the others may think about you It is time to worry about what "God thinks about you" Please brother and sister, pass it on? "I already did it" May God bless you always (II Cor 13: 13)
Brighter Side
I'm soooooo bored right now! But everything was so weird just now. The atmosphere was so thich i could hardly breath... Everything was awkward and lots of 'bad' things have been happening. It's hard to understand and see the light through everything, but you have to remember that the light is always there.
I don't want to rant and bitch about how much i love all of you and want to help you :3 but i won't bore all of you cause everyone should OBVIOUSLY know that i do. Although i just don't say it... As usual.
It's hard to see the light but it's not impossible.
I've been unable to sleep for the past few days. Like on monday night i really couldn't sleep. From like 12 until 2... I was being quite stupid, but if i concluded then that i could spend at least one whole hour praising and thanking Him for everything i have in my life... Really at least one hour or so. It's so easy and i couldn't stop smiling! I AM MAD AND INSANE AND THAT'S HOW I AM! SO THERE!
There is something i really have to say, and eventhough it sounds really selfish, it sort of helps me get through life... (SO SUE ME) And that is, "No matter how tough life gets, you have to get it through your head that there is DEFINITELY someone out there who has it MUCH, MUCH worse than you."
Yesterday, on my speech day, my shoe got crocodile mouth... then i was really frustrated. BUT, the thing was... that once i got down my bus and was inwardly cursing my shoe, i glanced across the road to see an old man pushing cardboards and the thing was... I focused on his feet. They were bare. He wasn't wearing any shoes. I told my mother and she said, "You have to remember that while you complain you have no shoes/slippers/footwear, there are people who have no feet." Or something like that...
So... Yeah ><;
(Edited: I remember the phrase she said, "You will complain that you don't have shoes until you see someone who doesn't have legs.)
The last few days have been... eventful. I suppose... In some sense or another. But i say eventful like it's a good thing. ><;
Alright alright conscience, stop with that incessant poking and jabbing. I guess i should let everything out since it IS my blog.
GAAAAAAAAH! I feel so mean! I feel so mean!!!! I can't believe myself! I mean, at that time, i guess i really don't know what came over me. The sudden urge to see things the way... deep inside i don't want to happen. Only when today the full-force of the impact hits me then i feel like a super jerk that words can't describe how horrid... Sure i still protect myself from it in some ways or another, defend myself in this case, but the truth is there and no matter how much i lie to myself i can't keep up the facade for long.
I mean SURE, she shouldn't have done... all of... THAT. But the fact that i retaliate in a manner that hurts the most makes me a bigger jerk doesn't it? What's wrong with me?! *bams head on wall* How can i only realise it only after it happens? How can i be so selfish, so heartless, so unforgiving, so... someone that i don't want to be.
How can i give in to the other side of me? Do i find satisfaction in other peoples pain? NO! Did you feel any sense of accomplishment when almost everything came tumbling down for someone else? NO! So i ask myself, what was the POINT.
So hopefully once we've done that. Maybe i'll feel better.
PS: Everything said here only has to do with me, has no reference to anyone else ><;
But this isn't the only thing. I find it hard to express condolence or love to anyone. That's probably why i went around hugging all my friends in secondary school. That's not the only reason of course but that's all i want to say for now.
Many people wear masks but sometimes it easy to tear it down and see underneath no matter how hard you try to keep it out. Laugh if you want to laugh, cry if you want to cry. Do not bluff your friends, and most of all, do not bluff yourself. As friends, we want to make sure you're alright. Let us in to help you, don't block us out. Kay? :)
And remember, no matter how strong you are, you're still a human. And humans have emotions, so there. Don't let it break you up on the inside, don't let it tear you apart... Find light, hope... and maybe from there...
Guilt, please don't break me.
Haven't been posting for a long time now haven't I... XD I'd just keep stopping and suddenly starting over and over. Just soooo lazy to type this out, but since now i'm in school and in lesson, i can DEFINITELY fine the time to do it. :3
I'm getting streeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessed! I just found out that in the week beginning... 16 July, i have MANY, MANY ICAs! Omg, i have like stats, accounting for assets, even oral communication presentation of a persuasive speeh: About why Boxing is bad. Shoot me. -.-; Not only all this, i still have projects! It's piling up and i'm drowning in there.
Econs, management and now HTML... I mean frontpage project. Kyaaaaaaaaaaah! SO MUCH!
Can tell i obviously have nothing better to do than to rant over my stressful school life. I just needed to let out some steam. :33333
Sickness much =.=
Gah! I hate this... I HATE GETTING SICK!!!! DDDDDD: Somemore... half of me believes i'm having like... dangee or something! I mean, i feel hot one minute and the next minute i feel cold! My fever keeps rising then dropping and my throat feels like hell! I also feel like chopping off my head... or maybe just banging it violently against something...
I was wondering if tomorrow when i go school, i should bring a sketchbook and talk to all my darling friends that way... Eg: Someone tells a joke, then I take out my sketchbook and scribble down, then i lift it up with a blank face and the words scribbled down are "Haha". Man! Like so boringgggggg!!
But the really weird thing is that... me and serene always get the same sickness.. when she says she has something, after a while, i feel like i'm getting it too! On msn, i've been seeing people put the.. 'A friend would bail you out of jail, but a true friend would go to jail with you and say, 'that was fun!' or something...
I came up with my own! A true friend would get sick with you and say with a grin, "Let's die together!" Damn i'm like so super lame, when i'm sick i can still come up with such dumb things. XDD Actually i did tell serene that yesterday when we were smsing each other... I said die together too... cause we both were wondering if we have dangee.. I said go hospital together, she said have beds next to each other! SO FUN! <- OMG I'M NUTS xDDDDDD But it does sound a little fun... *twidles fingers* Die together.. or recover together... xDD
But the thing was yesterday when i was praying... i come to enlighten that whatever happens, happens for good reason. I mean please, everything that happens to me is for my own good. And i trust His judgement... Gosh, i feel like that... management... *runs to check booklet* Oh right, locus of control thing.. I'm external locus of control! Believes that whatever happen is due to... well i don't believe it's due to luck or chance but... *shrugs*
So even if i am meant to die, it is all for the good! :DDD I LOVE POSITIVITY! XD <- Is abit mad... blame the medicine...
Name: Crystal
Age: 17
School: Nanyang Poly!
Herm, *quote* treat others how you want them to treat you.*unquote*
To trust, i need to make sure that people are able to love, to care. Basically to be a normal human with emotions.
I am a FIRM believer of happy endings, if you think life sucks, your ending just hasn't come yet. :)
Computer games
Fanfictioning
Drawing
Writing
FUN
Anime
MY SACHI-CHAN![laptop]
Negativity
Homophobes
Bitter things
SASUSAKU (Cannot resist putting this...)
Reptiles
I want to wish for:
Doujinshi! <-bite me -.-
Okay to be totally honest, there's nothing that i really want. I already have everything i need :3
Lemme go find some pictures then maybe i'll post them here.